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Ok, so I am still sick. Well, not sick sick, but I feel wiped out. My tank is on empty and I have been sleeping for what feels like a million years.

Tomorrow I will go back to work. That will be good for me. I still have school, which I have signed up for yet another term. (I think I am a glutton for punishment.) This made me think, I need M. Well, I need the "dependent" label. I get a discount for school. Yeah, I know I'm cheap.

Last night was the first night that M slept in the other room. That was very strange. Before the only time we slept in different parts of the house was because one of us was sick and didn't want to wake the other. It took me a while to get to sleep, then I had weirdo dreams. I woke myself up laughing one time and then in the next "scene", our friend April is was killed. I think that means that my mind is a tangle.

This brings up something else, friends.We have lots of friends that we have together. I am not sure how to maintain these. I don't want to put my friends in awkward positions. I don't want them to choose between us. I think this will be a benchmark point in time. I will see who "hangs tough". I have a pretty good idea of who they are. I know that I will need my friends more than ever this time.