Yes my darling readers I am sick. BLAH!! But as a bonus, not Kirby sick. I have a cold/sinus infection/general yuck. I feel like hammered shit. I hate being sick and it seems like in the last six months I have been sicker than ever. I'm pretty sure it has nothing to do with stress. HA!
Anywho, I think the meds are kicking in. Nap time.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Why put off today....
Ok so here it is 615pm and I am still not done with homework and I started at like 2. GRRR My mind is not in the game today. I would rather do a million other things than homework. So here I am blogging. LOL
Good news in Phoenixland- I GOT A HOUSE!! NAH NAH NAH NAH!!!! I move on Feb 6th. I wish it were sooner, but beggars can't be choosers. Now, its a smaller place and my ginormous bed will have to be in a room all by itself, but thats ok too. According to smarty people, bedrooms should only be for sleeping and sex, not tv, not homework, not books, not pets. So my bedroom will be a true bedroom- only right now, no sex. (sad panda face)
But hey, its got hardwood floors and tile. AND they let me bring the boys with me. So its all good. Plus its like 5 mins from my office. I will so be saving on gas. The yard is small enough for me to keep up with, but still big enough for the boys. I will though have to take them for walks to make sure they get enough exercise. I don't want any fatty boys! I am excited about being able to decorate how I want. So I am thinking I am going to go all eastern for the living room. I have a Buddha and some great asian inspired art. (A score from the church bizarre) I also have the two couches, although I don't think both pieces will fit. But hey, I have THREE bedrooms so I can stash it somewhere. Or even better I can sell it. Which I might do- they were chosen to fit X's tastes and not mine.
I want the set that is suede and leather. The chocolate colored ones. I think they would look great with some cranberry colored pillows and some cranberry colored curtains. AND, since I am such a granola head, I want to find everything off LYS. I don't want to buy anything brand new. Its my way of lowering my "Footprint". The kitchen is way small, but come one, its not like I entertain! I have found some great bar stools that are red! Ok, so they will be new. I don't want to search and wait for those. The boys will still have their own space, there is a little "bonus room" off of the living room. As for the cats, sha, like they care where they go. A warm bed and a sunny window is all they need.
I am ready to move, but at the same time it exhausts me. I look around at all my stuff and think, "HOLY HELL" I have so much stuff. AND, I can't really pack, because I use it all. Well, I could probably pack up my suits, but thats like one box. But, my girls, aka my family, keep me going straight. They have all volunteered their time on a Saturday. I just want it to take one day! I want to move stuff in and be done.
I told X today that he needs to find somewhere to be on moving day. It will be too hard for me. I love him dearly and he just doesn't see it. I love his smile, I love his laugh, I love his eyes. BUT, I don't love that he doesn't love me, he doesn't help me, that he doesn't make me a priority in his life. I need to remind myself that I deserve someone who loves me as much as I love them. Maybe for right now, I just need to forget all that lovey dovey crapola. I should be a dude! Love 'em and leave 'em. And honestly, if I have to be single, what a better place to be! Its like a shoe store and I have unlimited credit!! LOL
Ehhh... I suppose it is what it is. Life will go on, I am not gonna die, I will learn new things about myself and I will be a better person when I come out on the other side. (Ok meme, keep telling yourself this.....)
BLAH...... and I have cramps... FML
Good news in Phoenixland- I GOT A HOUSE!! NAH NAH NAH NAH!!!! I move on Feb 6th. I wish it were sooner, but beggars can't be choosers. Now, its a smaller place and my ginormous bed will have to be in a room all by itself, but thats ok too. According to smarty people, bedrooms should only be for sleeping and sex, not tv, not homework, not books, not pets. So my bedroom will be a true bedroom- only right now, no sex. (sad panda face)
But hey, its got hardwood floors and tile. AND they let me bring the boys with me. So its all good. Plus its like 5 mins from my office. I will so be saving on gas. The yard is small enough for me to keep up with, but still big enough for the boys. I will though have to take them for walks to make sure they get enough exercise. I don't want any fatty boys! I am excited about being able to decorate how I want. So I am thinking I am going to go all eastern for the living room. I have a Buddha and some great asian inspired art. (A score from the church bizarre) I also have the two couches, although I don't think both pieces will fit. But hey, I have THREE bedrooms so I can stash it somewhere. Or even better I can sell it. Which I might do- they were chosen to fit X's tastes and not mine.
I want the set that is suede and leather. The chocolate colored ones. I think they would look great with some cranberry colored pillows and some cranberry colored curtains. AND, since I am such a granola head, I want to find everything off LYS. I don't want to buy anything brand new. Its my way of lowering my "Footprint". The kitchen is way small, but come one, its not like I entertain! I have found some great bar stools that are red! Ok, so they will be new. I don't want to search and wait for those. The boys will still have their own space, there is a little "bonus room" off of the living room. As for the cats, sha, like they care where they go. A warm bed and a sunny window is all they need.
I am ready to move, but at the same time it exhausts me. I look around at all my stuff and think, "HOLY HELL" I have so much stuff. AND, I can't really pack, because I use it all. Well, I could probably pack up my suits, but thats like one box. But, my girls, aka my family, keep me going straight. They have all volunteered their time on a Saturday. I just want it to take one day! I want to move stuff in and be done.
I told X today that he needs to find somewhere to be on moving day. It will be too hard for me. I love him dearly and he just doesn't see it. I love his smile, I love his laugh, I love his eyes. BUT, I don't love that he doesn't love me, he doesn't help me, that he doesn't make me a priority in his life. I need to remind myself that I deserve someone who loves me as much as I love them. Maybe for right now, I just need to forget all that lovey dovey crapola. I should be a dude! Love 'em and leave 'em. And honestly, if I have to be single, what a better place to be! Its like a shoe store and I have unlimited credit!! LOL
Ehhh... I suppose it is what it is. Life will go on, I am not gonna die, I will learn new things about myself and I will be a better person when I come out on the other side. (Ok meme, keep telling yourself this.....)
BLAH...... and I have cramps... FML
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