I KNEW the Phoenix was right for me..

Ok, so since I have been out for the count due to Kirby and his wily ways. I have had some long nights where I am not tired. So I came across this while I was doing some impromptu research about Scorpios and health issues. (Turns out, we Scorps rule the "downstairs" items as well as kidneys and such. How about that!) I really kinda dig this, and wanted to share with you all. Maybe it was no coincidence that I happened upon the Phoenix....

This is what I found:

Scorpio is symbolized with the Scorpion, the Serpent as well as the Eagle, or the rare Phoenix. Small creatures like scorpions and serpents are often the most dangerous because men and larger animals are unable to readily see them. And because of their poison, stepping on them accidentally could be fatal.

The eagle is said to be a higher symbol for Scorpio than the scorpion and serpent and to represent the more highly evolved souls similar to the Phoenix.

But the final and most evolved type of Scorpio is a rare bird, the phoenix. The Phoenix has been through the fire this lifetime. Sometimes the fire is a difficult childhood illness or an emotional wound – the death of a loved one but instead of becoming bitter, cynical and vengeful like the Serpent or even the Eagle, they pass through the crisis and resurrects themselves from the ashes and as a result of their trauma they go through a conversion experience. It is through inner transformation that we discover wisdom. And Scorpio is consequently a sign of wisdom.

(http://www.astro-counseling.com/page25/page33/scorpio.html)

Kirby the squatter

DAMMIT!!! DAMMIT!! DAMMIT!!! AND ONCE MORE DAMMIT!!!
Kirby is damned squatter. He just wont leave. And on top of that- he is making me sick again. I have been laid up for like 3 fucking days!!! Nannon took me to Dr. Peepants on Tuesday where I got a lecture about not drinking enough water. Well no shit Doc, I have been in a coma for the last few days. Cant drink when I am asleep. Douche bag... Also he proceeds to give me this lecture about how disappointed he is in the litho not working. Well guess what Smart Ass- ME FUCKING TOO!! Like I like taking time off from work, wearing weird hospital gowns and getting IVs plugged in to me. Yeah, that's the good time I was looking for. Idiot!!

So last night after two days of 102 fever, X hauls me in to the ER. (He hates hospitals, so I was proud of him taking one for the team.) We went in at like 10:30 and left at 5:30am. (Which BTW, 5:30am is the time to go to the ER- there was NO ONE THERE!!) So its discovered that I have some sort of raging infection that wont leave. Had to do all the IV stuff and meds. Well then they scare me about saying something about being septic. So I have to take ANOTHER day off work to go and visit my girl Jill, so she can tell me if my legs are gonna turn black and blow away. I haven't been this fucking sick in years, not since Mono. I am so tired of being tired. It feels like I ran a marathon when I walk down stairs. You know that little "life bar" on video games, well I am in the lower middle and there are alarms going off. I am about ready to jump in to the lake of fire and let the alligator eat me. No, just kidding- I am not going to do that. I am just going to change doctors and get this figured out. Kirby needs to go!! He's not even paying me rent, and he is just destroying property. He's a terrible tenant. Sorry gentle readers, I am just crabby and hurting.

Kirby and assorted things

Well Kirby was served with his eviction notice yesterday. I have a bruise and a sore back. Also, and this might be TMI, but I am peeing sand. That is so fun. Oh and I pee alot alot alot alot. Every five seconds it seems.

Shannon is one of my dearest friends ever. She has taken such good care of me, I don't know where I would have been without her. Probably on the floor screaming in pain still in recovery from last week. She about took doc peepants out for not giving me any pain meds. Hes such a douche bag. And after she brought me home last week, she had some ladies come in and clean my whole downstairs. (Even X's nasty bathroom downstairs). I love her!!! So now I am planning my revenge on her- i think I will get her the queen for a day package at the spa. Hooker! LOL

So last night was not such a good night. I hurt and I was tired. All I wanted was to curl up with someone and be a baby for a bit. X has been very nice through out this whole ordeal. But nice as a friend nice, not nice as in love me nice. Shannon believes that we will make it work. But, I don't. He doesn't love me. I have no idea what he loves. But for sure it isnt me. Super girl lost her cape I think.....

X

All rightly loyal readers, as my life changes so does my outlook on M. From now on, he will be referred to as "X". Two reasons for this. One is that he is my ex, and ex just sounds ugly. Two, "X" is a great pen name. There are a lot of places that I talk about him and I never want to reveal all my secrets, so I always call him M. Those of you who know and love me, know what M stands for. So for those of you who don't, X just works better. SO X it is.


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And the beat goes on....

Well loyal readers, I apologize for not being on for a while, my health has taken a nose dive.

For those of you who are unaware- I have a hitchhiker in my body, no, not a baby. But a kidney stone, who I have affectionately named Kirby. Kirby is no shit, a pain in the back. I have had a ct scan, an ultrasound and next week I have an xray. Yes, healthcare professionals, I have a kidney stone. I appreciate all the time I have to take off work for you all to determine that. So can we now figure out how to make it better? PLEASE!!!

Then on top of all that I caught a cold, which of course, has morphed in to a sinus infection. YAY!! FML!!! So now I have more meds than someone in a nursing home. Last night I took a pain pill and woke up with the most hellish headache ever. Worse than a hangover. So I have been in bed all day. (that isnt a bad thing- I love my bed!!)

Well work is going well, my Black Tie event was good. Everyone seemed to have a good time, and the food of course was delish. I looked quite nice, super glad about that. LOL So that's done. Another notch in the desk. Next week I have another event, ready for it to be done. Then I can get started on yet another one. And the beat goes on.....

WOW!!

Ok so here is the "Weekend Update" so to speak. I went out to house sit for Ali and D on Friday. I was in the mood to be social. So called up Joes to see if she wanted to join me. Something came up and she couldn't. SO here I am all ready to go and no one to go with. I decided, I am gonna go by myself. I don't know these people, so fuck em. I went to Buddy's. I sat at the bar and ordered a burger and beer. Started chatting with the people at the bar. The cat sitting next to me was pretty conversational so that was good. After dinner I decided that I wanted to go to the Sandbar to go dance. Cat says " do you mind company" I really didn't want to hang out with him anymore, but ehh. As I was walking out to my car, I looked over at the beach and it was just calling to me. The moon was full and the water looked like molten silver splashing up on the sand. SOOO Beautiful!! Well Cat decides that hes gonna walk with me. No biggie, although I was trying to figure out how to ditch him. I look over and see sunglasses in the sand- SCORE!! Oakleys!! Yay for meme!!
The sandbar was a lot of fun too. Chatted and danced with a big tall kid from Beaumont, I think his name was Billy. Although I have no idea!! HAHHA The best part about the whole evening is that I didn't need anyone to have a good time. Which brought me to think, that honestly I don't need anyone for much of anything. I enjoy M and part of my heart will always belong to him, but I don't need him. Yes, it will be harder for me, but I can do it. So go me!!

I feel pretty, oh so pretty!!

Ok this is gonna sound like the dumbest thing ever... But, some random guy asked me for my phone number the other day. It has been a very long time since that has happened to me. LOL I think the last time that happened to me, I didn't even OWN a cell phone. HAHAHHA

No, I did not give him my number, but I did take his. HAHAHAHHAHAHA

Anywhooo, it made me feel cute, so I will take it.