And the beat goes on....

Well loyal readers, I apologize for not being on for a while, my health has taken a nose dive.

For those of you who are unaware- I have a hitchhiker in my body, no, not a baby. But a kidney stone, who I have affectionately named Kirby. Kirby is no shit, a pain in the back. I have had a ct scan, an ultrasound and next week I have an xray. Yes, healthcare professionals, I have a kidney stone. I appreciate all the time I have to take off work for you all to determine that. So can we now figure out how to make it better? PLEASE!!!

Then on top of all that I caught a cold, which of course, has morphed in to a sinus infection. YAY!! FML!!! So now I have more meds than someone in a nursing home. Last night I took a pain pill and woke up with the most hellish headache ever. Worse than a hangover. So I have been in bed all day. (that isnt a bad thing- I love my bed!!)

Well work is going well, my Black Tie event was good. Everyone seemed to have a good time, and the food of course was delish. I looked quite nice, super glad about that. LOL So that's done. Another notch in the desk. Next week I have another event, ready for it to be done. Then I can get started on yet another one. And the beat goes on.....

WOW!!

Ok so here is the "Weekend Update" so to speak. I went out to house sit for Ali and D on Friday. I was in the mood to be social. So called up Joes to see if she wanted to join me. Something came up and she couldn't. SO here I am all ready to go and no one to go with. I decided, I am gonna go by myself. I don't know these people, so fuck em. I went to Buddy's. I sat at the bar and ordered a burger and beer. Started chatting with the people at the bar. The cat sitting next to me was pretty conversational so that was good. After dinner I decided that I wanted to go to the Sandbar to go dance. Cat says " do you mind company" I really didn't want to hang out with him anymore, but ehh. As I was walking out to my car, I looked over at the beach and it was just calling to me. The moon was full and the water looked like molten silver splashing up on the sand. SOOO Beautiful!! Well Cat decides that hes gonna walk with me. No biggie, although I was trying to figure out how to ditch him. I look over and see sunglasses in the sand- SCORE!! Oakleys!! Yay for meme!!
The sandbar was a lot of fun too. Chatted and danced with a big tall kid from Beaumont, I think his name was Billy. Although I have no idea!! HAHHA The best part about the whole evening is that I didn't need anyone to have a good time. Which brought me to think, that honestly I don't need anyone for much of anything. I enjoy M and part of my heart will always belong to him, but I don't need him. Yes, it will be harder for me, but I can do it. So go me!!

I feel pretty, oh so pretty!!

Ok this is gonna sound like the dumbest thing ever... But, some random guy asked me for my phone number the other day. It has been a very long time since that has happened to me. LOL I think the last time that happened to me, I didn't even OWN a cell phone. HAHAHHA

No, I did not give him my number, but I did take his. HAHAHAHHAHAHA

Anywhooo, it made me feel cute, so I will take it.

Oh Jeeze....

So went to the doc today- guess what beloved readers- I have a giant kidney stone. YAY! So now for more tests and then some procedure where they blast out some radio waves and smash up the thing!

But on a good note, I got a call from my insurance company and they are trying to get my money back for me from that greedy bitch who sued me! YAYAY!

And now, I am house sitting for a friend and wishing I could live here. She lives at the beach and her patio over looks the intercoastal water way. SOO JEALOUS!! So I will just pretend for the evening! LOL HHAHAH

Short post tonight!

PS-Momma Meg, theo is soo cute! I am already in love with him! MUAH!

Sigh....

hmmm today was interesting. Got to go and visit the Coast Guard facility. That was insanely cool!! Got go on those cool orange boats that go really really fast!! Super Neat!

So then I am checking messages on the way back to the office and low and behold, USAA is calling wanting to know about the "accident" that occurred in January. For those of you who are new to my life, back in January, i was changing lanes and this woman ran up on me, well she was going fast and had to swerve to avoid hitting me. She jumped the curb and popped both of her tires. Since I am a good person, I stopped to see if she was ok. So I gave her my info and guess what, she filed against my insurance to get her care repaired. They denied her. So then because she could not get any money from insurance, she sued me in civil court. She won. I had to pay that heifer 500 bucks!! Fuck I was mad!! So I think, "Ok I paid the bitch, now go away!"

So USAA is having to do another investigation because this girl wants more money, from MY INSURANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
So now I am insanely pissed, I even said "Fuck" to my MOM!! (I never do that.) So I called base legal and have to make an appointment on Monday. The nice person I talked to on the phone said that she is pretty sure they can help me. I sure hope so. I FUCKING PAID HER, SO GO AWAY!!!!!!!!

Sometimes it seems one step forward, two steps back... Sigh

Ick Update

Well went for the ultrasound today. Number one- tech was a flake!! She was all over the place, mumbling to herself and clicking buttons. I think she has to spend to much time in the little dark room. The woman needs some sunshine!! So she thinks that she saw a cyst on my ovary, so that is exciting. She also saw "something" in my kidney, although she isnt sure what it is. YAY again!! PFFTTT :P

Changing gears now, I went to church yesterday for the first time in a long time. I spent the hour praying for help. Lately I have had a "love-hate" relationship with the Big Guy. In all honesty, I have a severe problem with the people who think they know what God is trying to say. But I went anyways. I asked him to help me with the issues that have come before me with the divorce and separation. I was really at the end of my rope. I asked for guidance, although I have to say I didn't have faith in it. But He really does have a plan for me. Abit, a crazy-make-me-nuts-raise-my-bp plan, but a plan none the less.

SOOO, I shared this blog with a great friend that I have made this past year. She read the blog and sent me many links to help me wade thru the muck that my life has become. Well, at least she gave me a shove in the right direction. I love you Mo G! You really are anwser to my prayers, thank you...

Today is done. I get to try again tomorrow. I don't want to be a grown up anymore. :(

Scared...

Ok today is a not so good day. (I have those now and then.) I am officially scared of the future. M no kidding wants me out. I talked to him yesterday about me just staying here and he says no. He really wants me to get on with my life. (Or so he says.)

I did some checking on the good ole internet and discovered that, wait for it, low and behold, I could only qualify for about 50K. Yeah, umm, for that I can rent a tent in someone's back yard. FML!!

So here I am thinking that, Hey I can handle this, I got this! OHH NOOO I DON'T!!! What the hell was I thinking, there is no way I can do this. There isn't. I can't make this work. I can't even find a decent rental for less than 900 a month. And for that I have to leave the furkids here. I can't live without my babies. Chance is momma's baby dog!! (I tell him this daily!)

I really don't want to ask my mom and dad to cosign for me. I am supposed to be an adult. Adults don't do that. They are supposed to have everything under control. Which, if you haven't noticed, I don't.

I guess I will just have to trust that if I work hard, everything will work itself out. Someone remind me of this daily please.