Time for a New Post!

Well boys and girls, its been a hot minute since I posted anything. So how about a quick update?

X is currently deployed. Doesn't really bother me much. We exchange random emails here and there about benign things. There is still an elephant in the room, but we will deal with that when he gets back. He is still a dorkus malorkus.

So I decided to try my hand at meeting new people. I went on a few coffee meets, but nothing really panned out. Met some doozies though. BLAH!

But then I met "Bear". At first he and I were just "friends". That worked out pretty good for a few weeks, but then he and I really started to like each other more. He invited me to his ball, and we had a great time. We went to Myrtle Beach and were total tourists! We walked on the beach and went to Ripley's. We ended up in the arcade! It's been years since I have played ski ball! Things just kind of progressed after that. He started staying over a lot more. I even introduced him to the G's. Now that is saying a lot there. I don't just bring anyone around my girls.

So we made it thru the holidays and New Years and had a great time! But then DRAMA has to rear its ugly head!

Bear has some baby mama drama. So back in January Bear's soon to be ex claimed that she was moving back here. This totally freaked me out, and I told Bear that if he wasn't careful she would ruin "this" for him. I also told him that I didn't need or want any issues with her. He said he understood. And "She" is something else. She is 23 and stupid. She calls at all hours of the day and night. She is a pain in the ass.
But he seemed to get her under control and all is right with the world. We go to dinner, we stay in, we shop - just basically having a great time. He even stayed with the pups when I went to New Zealand!!
Fast forward to the present- as in last weekend. We celebrate his birthday on Saturday. (SpongeBob at the pizza place for just me and him.) Sunday rolls around, we sleep in. Then I get up and we hang out at the house, go for coffee etc. Just the normal stuff. Well I am making a new recipe for dinner. We eat and then are cleaning up. He then tells me that he knows that I am unhappy with new developments in his life, mainly SHE is planning on moving back to Jville in like three weeks. He is also getting ready to leave to go pick up his son and will have him until SHE gets here. I tell him, yeah I am a bit jealous that I will not be able to spend more time with him once the lil man gets here. And yes I am worried that SHE and her busy body friends will cause trouble for us, but I can deal. He knows me pretty well by now and he knows that I am not being totally truthful. He is right. I am pissed off that I have to share my time. But, I know that this is a battle I can not win. He wants to be a dad so badly and has been cheated out of his time with him. I feel for him, I really do, but Damn!
So he tells me that we should part ways. He doesn't want to be worried that I am upset because he can't spend time with him and I don't want to have our relationship cause issues with his job. So he and I broke up. He walked out the house and told me "I'm sorry."
I have seen him a few times since then, he came over to get some of his things. I really miss him. I miss cuddling with him, I miss walking in to stores with him. (He actually liked to hold my hand!) And now pretty much a week later, I find myself thinking of him often. I will see a shirt in the store and think "Oh Bear would like that". But as in all break ups, I will be fine. And maybe in another time or place we can try again.

So thats the update on the relationship front. Work is the same, school is over and I am still broke! HAHAHHAHAH But, I am thankful for having a home, and having great friends and having sweet dogs and cats who love me all the time.

So until next time....